Living A Nightmare

Ever had a bad dream, or a nightmare? Where you’re screaming, screaming so loud for help, but no one is helping you. You’re yelling so hard, you feel your lungs exploding, your throat bursting, your veins bulging. Your face is rouge and you’re drowning in your own tears. The resonant thumping of your heart is all that your ears are accustomed to. You’re aching to reveal to your family that you need help, desperately. You clamber to the next room and begin nudging your mum to come to the rescue, but something’s not quite right. It’s as if she can’t see you. Your dad is too engrossed in BBC News. And your sibling, well, why bother. 

No one can see or hear you. Your silent screams are futile. Why are you even trying, they wouldn't understand anyway? That heart of yours is echoing to escape, to break free from you, once and for all. That mind wants to be unchained of all those thoughts and worries you constantly poisoned it with. That’s right. You poisoned it. Force-fed it like a stubborn toddler, with potential situations, anxieties, memories even. In the end, all it could do was be in despair. It couldn’t even talk to the heart anymore, nope. They used to be best friends as well. Look what you did. So cold and cruel of you. I know you hate yourself for it. Maybe you deserve it. Couldn’t you have just left them alone? Couldn’t you have just let it be? They would have healed sooner at least. It’s too late now. The venom has captured your soul. It runs in your blood and all throughout your body. Now you’re stuck in this hell of a place and no one can help you.

No one, but yourself. 

Only, you’re poisoned.

Why can’t I wake up?

'If I didn't think, I'd be much happier.' - Silvia Plath

Drink. Think. Do.

Day dreamer. That's me. Forever wondering. Forever attempting to solve the complex intricacies of life.
Sometimes I like to think of it as being a superhero, (preferably Catwoman, because she FIESTYYY! Oh and I like pretending to be a cat,) figuring out where we go wrong, how we can make it right. You know, trying to make the world a better place for us to live in an' all?

The wonderer.

'OI you! Stop zonking out all the time!'

If I got a piece of choccy for every time someone said that to me. I'd be mega obese.

I'd have a mate talking to me and i'd just zone out, thinking about something that happened that day, or something that could happen or whatever. (Or maybe I have boring friends? - Guys if you're reading this I'm messing and you know I have lotsa lovin' for you xox)

And then it hit me. BAM. It hit me in the face, just like an angry sister who found out her phone had been dropped and smashed... Erm yeah, it was an accident.

We may think about various things and aspects in our life, but do we actually DO?

The things that have gone wrong for us, do we sit there and dwell or do we attempt to actually CHANGE?

I don't just wonder, but I dream. I imagine my future, what I want, where I want to be. At first I'd think about the impossible. Nahhhh I'd never be able to achieve that. I'd never be able to get that job. But in essence, nothing is impossible if you believe so. If you limit yourself you won't achieve anything beyond that. DREAM BIG. Go beyond what you think you can do. There's no harm in it. Picture yourself in the position you want to be. Sometimes when you see that others have what you wish for, it helps. It makes you get off your a*se and grab that opportunity to make your dream, your reality.

Being idle will get you nowhere. 

You have to get out there and start somewhere, anywhere. The notion of making a move, even if its an inkling means you're putting a step in the right direction. You've got to try and try and try. Remember it will take time, maybe a lot of it, yet with perseverance you'll get there hopefully. It's better than wasting time and sitting in front of the telly watching re-runs of Come Dine with me, right?

Anyway this is just something that popped into my head while attempting to write my essay. Got the thought and name of this post from the back of a Lucuzade bottle. Ahh good ol' Lukey, didn't give me energy but gave me something to write!

Now I have S-Club 7's: Reach for the stars in my head! Damn. Better get back to assignmenting now.

Always try your best and if you don't get there, try again. And if you STILL don't get there. Remember there's a good reason for it. It's Kismat xxoxx