Drink. Think. Do.

Day dreamer. That's me. Forever wondering. Forever attempting to solve the complex intricacies of life.
Sometimes I like to think of it as being a superhero, (preferably Catwoman, because she FIESTYYY! Oh and I like pretending to be a cat,) figuring out where we go wrong, how we can make it right. You know, trying to make the world a better place for us to live in an' all?

The wonderer.

'OI you! Stop zonking out all the time!'

If I got a piece of choccy for every time someone said that to me. I'd be mega obese.

I'd have a mate talking to me and i'd just zone out, thinking about something that happened that day, or something that could happen or whatever. (Or maybe I have boring friends? - Guys if you're reading this I'm messing and you know I have lotsa lovin' for you xox)

And then it hit me. BAM. It hit me in the face, just like an angry sister who found out her phone had been dropped and smashed... Erm yeah, it was an accident.

We may think about various things and aspects in our life, but do we actually DO?

The things that have gone wrong for us, do we sit there and dwell or do we attempt to actually CHANGE?

I don't just wonder, but I dream. I imagine my future, what I want, where I want to be. At first I'd think about the impossible. Nahhhh I'd never be able to achieve that. I'd never be able to get that job. But in essence, nothing is impossible if you believe so. If you limit yourself you won't achieve anything beyond that. DREAM BIG. Go beyond what you think you can do. There's no harm in it. Picture yourself in the position you want to be. Sometimes when you see that others have what you wish for, it helps. It makes you get off your a*se and grab that opportunity to make your dream, your reality.

Being idle will get you nowhere. 

You have to get out there and start somewhere, anywhere. The notion of making a move, even if its an inkling means you're putting a step in the right direction. You've got to try and try and try. Remember it will take time, maybe a lot of it, yet with perseverance you'll get there hopefully. It's better than wasting time and sitting in front of the telly watching re-runs of Come Dine with me, right?

Anyway this is just something that popped into my head while attempting to write my essay. Got the thought and name of this post from the back of a Lucuzade bottle. Ahh good ol' Lukey, didn't give me energy but gave me something to write!

Now I have S-Club 7's: Reach for the stars in my head! Damn. Better get back to assignmenting now.

Always try your best and if you don't get there, try again. And if you STILL don't get there. Remember there's a good reason for it. It's Kismat xxoxx

The Overthinker.

It's been a while since i've blogged, but hopefully I shall be keeping up with this compared to before!

In those brief few months I was away, I learnt a lot about myself, experiencing things that life unwaveringly bombarded me with. One of the things I particularly learned was that I stress too much. Now, having a history of stress and anxiety, I already knew I did, but as to what extent I did so, I was unaware of.

I'm a thinker, I think to my heart is content, I analyse till my heart is discontent. And that's when I noticed a problem. I thought about things so much so - that I over-analysed them. My mind clouded by 'what ifs' and 'buts', poisoned by things that could go wrong: worries, anxieties, the future, the past. Sometimes it got to the point where I was going to mentally implode. I just wanted things to go right. I'd get told to 'not stress so much', yet it's not as easy as that, you really can't tell your mind to just shut up. If only there was an on and off switch.

Over thinking can be frustrating and disabling. It's like the leaky kitchen tap that incessantly drip, drip, drips and doesn't stop no matter how much you forcefully try turn it off. It's good to ponder upon certain things, but only a certain amount. While flicking through my instagram account, I came across a photo: 'People who over-think tend to create problems that weren't even there to begin with.' And that's when I paused for a moment and realised, you know what, this is true, I'm doing it all wrong.

It occurred to me that maybe I should let life take it's toll, do my best and stop thinking about these 'buts' and 'what ifs'. Because in the end, I'm making things worse for myself. There is no point worrying about what is going to happen, the future. And there is no point worrying about what has happened, the past. I need to focus on now, the present. I need to focus on now and eventually I will get my 'perfect' future. I need to focus on now.

Whenever I get overwhelmed my mum always tells me: 'Don't spoil your today or tomorrow because of yesterday.' She's right. Mums are always right.

I admit, I find it really difficult to just forget everything. But it takes time. Change takes time, but it will be worth it in the end. I've learnt patience is key.

I've promised myself to change this habit. Instead of stressing continuously, I guess we should just let whatever has to happen to happen and accept that everything that has happened, was for a reason, that too, for the best.


After all, it's kismat right?